Thursday, May 28, 2009

Those Blah Days

I've been having a lot of blah days lately. You'd think the fact that I'm getting married to my best friend in less than 5 months would have me in an overall better mood. But with my job and the economy I've just felt kind of melancholy lately. I feel like after doing a million favors for people at work they are never returned and I am treated as though I'm the one causing all the problems. Take last week for example, my parents took off work and I was in charge of the office. My Mom had this lady who works part time for us come in, which you would think would be a great asset, but she is the most co-dependent not self assured person I have ever met, and she's over 60, you'd think she'd have over come this by now. But some of my stuff fell through the cracks because she was constantly asking me about things and I was having to help her through her days. I don't know, I just feel like I can do no right, so why stay at this job any longer than I have to? I realize I work for family and this is the way it goes sometimes, but I just didn't see my life being like this at my age. I mean I literally have to make myself get out of bed everyday because I know that I'm going to get crap all day at work. Not to mention I can't even talk about my political views half the time because I work with a bunch of super conservative Christians and anything having to do with anything that may go against their beliefs is wrong and should be banned. I just feel like I'm the only one in this office held responsible for my actions and I'm rather sick of it.

Sorry I haven't blogged in a while, but I didn't want you all to feel like this was a ranting blog, so I've avoided blogging all together. I'll post another blog later today with more knitting/wedding content. I promise, not so much bitching next time.